It's hard to describe what I feel. My brain is a bit dull with just 3 hours of sleep. And am trying to avoid any hard menial thinking but there's this sneaky feeling that soon I will get hit by a bus of feelings when I get back home - alone by myself.
Yes, I know - there I was screaming out new found joy of my freedom and independence, that it seems almost ridiculous that I will long for someone. But hell, I really do. Yes, the Impossible DOES happen, It DID happen, and It IS Happening. I had expected to be the Rule, and not the Exception. Some parts of me of course hoped to be the Exception, but I knew from experience that Expecting the Exception was not a wise thing. (Yes, how confusing!) And it was rather confusing to my defense, but somehow it's working out to be alright. For once, it's nice to be the Exception and not the Rule.
I've met someone. Sorry guys! Sexiest creature alive - I must say. Am smiling as I type this. I can safely say that he's more of a man than I've ever met and probably ever will meet. How we met and how we found each other is an interesting story, and is definitely not one that is easily explainable. (And so with this disclaimer, I probably won't need to explain to friends and family????...haha...) Nothing is conventional about us - that's the fun and challenging part. We have our vast differences (words that I know he will love to hear me pronounce! Grrrr...) of course, but yet, so much similarity that it can be scary sometimes. And although there's no foreseen sure future waiting for us, but one thing I am certain of - He looks at me the same way I look at him.
And that alone, is enough said. I miss you, Babes...
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